I am Tired

I am tired of feeling like I am a prisoner to my thoughts

I am tired of canceling plans

I am tired of molding my life around anxiety

I am tired of being tired

I am tired of racing thoughts, a pounding heartbeat, nausea, shaky hands and sweaty pits

I am tired of feeling like a little kid having to call my mom when I have a bad panic episode

I am tired of feeling like I can't handle change

I am tired of leaving a meetings/work early because I can't take one more second of my pounding heart and shaky hands

I am tired of feeling like something is wrong with me

I am tired of feeling sick to my stomach

I am tired of making up excuses

I am tired of feeling like I can't take care of myself

I am tired of waking up every hour throughout the night

I am tired of intrusive thoughts

I am tired of putting on a calm front when I feel my life is falling apart around me

I am tired of reliving traumatic events

I am tired of being afraid

I am tired of worrying about everything

I am tired of living in a world that I feel does not understand me

I am tired of feeling like a burden

I am tired of feeling like I did something wrong

I am tired of always anticipating the worse

I am tired of feeling my work is never good enough

I am tired of fighting my anxiety

Amanda Shea is the founder and creator of Voices of Anxiety. She is an advocate, writer and educator living in the Boston area. Amanda holds a B.A. in Women’s Studies and Psychology from the University of Massachusetts Boston.